Please Continue Leading the Right Track Jonnell

I know Jonnell that you are tired of playing the games and pretending you’re okay though it’s not.

We've seen your strong commitment from the start and we recognized all your efforts in handling the multi-task even it’s under pressure. We've seen you crying alone when you feel bad and have disappointment. You've shown patience with simplicity and on how you control your emotions. You've shown strong dedication and ability in your work. We didn't hear you complaining and even arguing with your superior. You always put respect even exceeds or beyond your limitations. I believe, you've always place respect beyond them. You value people and your work. You always stand in good values inculcate by your parents.You always hide the pain and stand alone. And in order to weigh in, you always find ways to comfort yourself even at your own health risk - to escape in the reality of life even for the meantime.

You are a hardworking man. And I know how you value your work. Proven when you handle the Libya crisis; the humanitarian mission which you handle everything smoothly. The limited number of hours to sleep in order to re-charge even small energy is quite hard. As well as the body stress and mind the whole 24 hours is extremely difficult. Nevertheless, the humanitarian mission is a huge success and we can’t deny your full and best support in saving the lives of different nation in a strife-torn Libya.

I salute you on how you build a good relationship to your colleague towards your work. You have made them special even small things. You always spare time to them even at your busiest day. Even you are run down, you put an extra time not to miss the invitation and they may not experience disappointment.

You are sensitive and you cannot easily hide your emotions. Even I know, you've always pretend that you are okay but your action speaks louder than your words. You cannot suppress yourself completely in hiding a frustrations behind your smile.

Let’s face it; some people may not appreciate you. But I always respect that because I know the pressure in handling the biggest responsibility in your department. And it's a serious matter and you are accountable in your decision and action. I guess, they overshadow your good intention, work-ability and dedication. It’s easy to say things against you and leave it all behind for which they had not experienced it. Accept the fact that they will say something against you at your back and you cannot please them to know you more better. 

We cannot understand that despite of the failure, hatred and displeasure you’ve been experiencing, you've always pushing yourself to work hard. Notwithstanding the bias treatment in the workplace you've always experience. I guess, we have to blame Arnel because he tells you the thing which you don’t know. Realizing and being aware to the extent you develop anger and hatred because of the unequal treatment. But perhaps, you have to thank him also for I know he has a good intention; to see things which you don’t know and to understand the things which is uncertain- balancing yourself in a dark area of a poor judgement.

As a result, you are now aware how they overshadow all your efforts and your hard work. And instead, have recognized and gave incentives to others for an invalid reason which is not fair  and unjust.

Further to that, now you've realized the reason why some of your employees are gradually withdrawn their intention of their contract renewal.

 And I cannot blame you if you gradually lose enthusiasm and soon disengaged too and leave the four corners of this institution.

No one will understand these conflicts except a person who gave you a wrong vision in leading the track.

On the other hand, we are still hoping to resolve this issue and realize to have an equal judgment not only for you but for the next person who will work after you.

But then, continue what you had started and aim most high.

Your twin,

Jonnell the second

MY TOP TEN WRITING HABITS

Ang tipikal na ugali ko bago o habang lumilikha ng Obra Maestra.

1.    AYOKONG MAY KINAKAIN HABANG NAGSUSULAT- hindi talaga ako palakain kapag nagsusulat kasi napapansin ko kapag may nginunguya ako habang nagsusulat ay hinahatak ako ng kabusugan at nagiging resulta ng aking pagkaantok at tuluyang pagkatulog. Sa kabuuan ay wala akong matatapos sa aking gagawin at nasimulan. Itutulog ko na lang nang tuluyan kung anuman ang nasimulan ko.

2.    TUBIG- mahilig akong uminom ng tubig at laging may tubig sa harapan ko. Uhawin ako. Hindi naman ako dehydrated..lolz. Hindi ako madalas umiinom ng kape kasi pakiramdam ko e lagi akong kinakapos ng paghinga. Hindi rin ako palainom ng kahit anong soda kapag nagsusulat kasi nabubusog ako at inaantok ako. Basta tubig lang ay buhay na ako at para itong gasolina ko…heheheh.

3.    MAHILIG MAG-ISA – kapag nagsusulat ako ay ayokong may maingay at lakad nang lakad sa paligid ko. Madali akong “madestruct” sa ginagawa ko. Lahat ng mga binubuo ko sa aking isipan ay biglang naglalaho. Kaya madalas ay nais kong nasa isang “cubicle” lang ako na walang gumagambala.

4.    MUSIKA- mas ginaganahan akong magsulat kapag may naririnig akong musika habang nagsusulat lalo pa’t ang musika ito ay may pinaghuhugutan ng damdamin. Kung mapapansin nang ilan ay lagi akong may “headset” kahit saan lugar. Nang dahil sa musika ay nakakabuo ako ng panulat.

5.    SUMPUNGIN- may “mood swing” ako sa pagsusulat. Hindi ako madalas magsulat. Pero kapag sinumpong ako ng pagsusulat ay hindi lang isa o dalawa ang natatapos ko. DI ko alam kung bakit?..lolz

6.    WALANG NOTEBOOK AT BALLPEN- maganda ang handwriting ko. Iyon ang sabi ng mga kaklase ko nung HS ako hanggang sa ngayon na nagtatrabaho na ako. Katunayan, lagi akong secretary sa Practical Arts namin noong nasa HS ako ehehehhe. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nang nauso ang computer ay tinamad na akong gumamit ng notebook at ballpen kapag nagsusulat. Wala na akong mock-up o lay-out sa aking mga sinusulat. Kapag sinumpong ako ng “baltik” sa pagsusulat ay diretso upo sa computer at isusulat ko agad ang lahat ng mga bumuo sa aking isipan. At bawal ang istorbo!

7.    NAKAHIGA- sa gabi ay madalas gumagana ang utak ko sa pagsusulat. Lalo na kapag nakahiga na ako. Mas maraming naglalaro at bumubuo sa isipan ko na mga mahahalagang bagay o pangyayari na nais kong ibahagi. Kaya minsan, sa gitna ng aking paghuhugot-tulog ay bigla akong babangon at sisimulan ko ng tipain ang lahat ng mga bumuong idea sa aking isipan.

8.    MALINIS ANG LUGAR- hindi ako nakakapagsulat kapag may nakikita akong madumi sa paligid ko. Lalo na sa lamesa ko. Kahit ayoko itong tignan at isipin na wala akong nakikita, kaso ung mata ko e tinutukso akong tignan ito. Madaling mag-init ang ulo ko. Parang gusto kong ibalibag ang lahat ng gamit ng mga taong nagkakalat…hahahaha… Ayoko rin na may naaamoy ako na mabaho. Pakiramdam ko ay nawawasak ang nostrils ko.

9.    TAMAD- tamad akong gumawa ng nobela. Pero mas hilig kong magbahagi ng mga simpleng kuwento o pangyayari. Gusto ko iyong maikli lang pero nandun na ang gusto kong sabihin. Mas naguguluhan ako kapag mahaba na ang sinusulat ko. Mahilig akong magbasa ng mga nobela, katunayan ay mahilig akong magbasa nito sa net (I-books application). Pero ayoko naman gumawa ng nobela. Parang ang gulo ko? Basta magbabasa lang ako ng nobela.

10.  MAPAGMASID- kahit saang lugar ako ay lagi akong mapagmasid. Mas marami akong nabubuong kuwento at pangyayari sa mga nakikita ko. At laging inilalagay ko ang aking karakter kapag nagsusulat ako. Mas nararamdaman ko ito sa halip na nakikinig lang ako sa kuwento nang ilan.

Kaya kung mapapansin n’yo ay bihira lang ako bumulaga sa DF dahil sa “mood swing” ko. At aminado rin ako na marami akong mga maling pagkakabuo ng pangungusap dahil sa lagi akong nagsusulat na walang banghay. Instant sulat at upload agad. Hehehehe